Fearful but not afraid.

Here it is, the beginning of what I have been preparing for for about a year now. I fly off to Africa today. Today. Hold on, one more time... TODAY!  I have to be honest. Last night I cried thinking about leaving all my friends, old and new, that I've made on this adventure through Israel, Greece, and Turkey. And when I thought about how much I do indeed miss my family, my cute nieces and nephews, and my momma and pops... And for those of you who really know me, it's easy to tell that I miss Jesse even when I'm in the states and go a week without seein him! But last night was overwhelming. Coming to the reality that all the preparing, all the planning, everything I've been waiting for is finally here. And sitting in the truth that apart from Christ, this dream would have never came true.  I'm terrified, but so excited. Not terrified in that I'm afraid, but more so fearful. Understand?  Ever been part of something you just know is way bigger than yourself? That's what I'm walking into. I don't know what this summer will hold, or even this next year. But I know that God is calling me to partner in something that I don't fully grasp yet. so my fear is not in being scared, but rather fear of the Lord.  I fly out tonight at around 7pm. I'm packed and checked out of my hotel and running around Athens waiting to start this new chapter. Please pray for safe travels, for my class heading back to the states and for me as I got to my heart's land.  Blessings friends!